I have always been fascinated by the thought of keeping a dream diary, and I have had multiple of them over the years. I threw them all out last year because they contained a lot of sensitive information and bad memories of a person I didn’t want to have in my life so it felt better to just get rid of them. I went for about six months without a dream diary to give it a break, then I decided to purchase a new note book in May of this year. It was such a relief to have a place to write down my dreams again and it felt like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders.
Sometimes I have dreams that I don’t understand, sometimes my dreams are terrifying and sometimes I just can’t remember what happened in them no matter how hard I try to recall them. They say that you get better at remembering your dreams over the years if you write them down but I’m not sure if that has been the case for me. Nor have I ever been able to control my dreams and they often turn for the worse, making me wake up feeling panicked or being drenched in sweat. I’m not sure why I have so many bad dreams but there is probably some scientific explanation behind it.
The note book I’m using now I purchased off of Wish for about a dollar, and I think it’s really pretty. It uses a non bleached paper and I find it to be really comfortable to write on. On the inside of the cover I have written a quote from a song performed by Neon Hitch, a song called neighborhood. It seemed really fitting since I have bad dreams a lot so my mind would most likely be a bad neighborhood anyways. I use a mix of my Staedtler Triplus Fineliner pens and some gel glitter pens to write in it with, not really being too picky about how it ends up looking. I just want it to be colorful and sparkly to make it seem more joyful than it is.
I find that writing down my dreams sometimes can help me work through issues that I have and it gives me a place to vent without having to share my burden with other people. I was never one to seek out others to talk with them because I didn’t want my problems to become theirs so writing was my therapy.
Have you ever had a dream diary? Is it something you have considered to have? Also, do you ever remember your dreams when you wake up? Sometimes I suddenly remember details towards the end of the day and it’s so weird. I’m always a bit skeptical, thinking that I’m just fabricating memories, but I can never be sure.