This will just be a post talking about my health issues, if that is of no interest to you, don’t worry, you can just click away from the page, no hard feelings!
I have talked about this before, but I don’t do so very often, but I was in a severe accident when I was 7 years old. I have a permanent injury in my leg and it makes a lot of things difficult to do. This includes jobs, and I have always pretended to be more able bodied that I am and that has resulted in me jeopardizing my health.. a lot. I think I can count on one hand the times where I actually felt pretty good during the previous year. The biggest issue is that I had to transplant a lot of skin from my right leg to my left, but it didn’t really do much and the skin on my heel breaks so easily if I’m on my feet a lot. I guess you can see how this would be an issue in a lot of work situations.
That and having a pretty uncomfortable skin illness has broken me down a lot over the years, and in May, I decided that enough was enough. I sent in my letter of resignation and as of June 30th, I am no longer employed. I had a long conversation with my regular doctor and she recommended applying for welfare, but only to an extent where I can keep a part time job. I would hate to just be 100% on welfare and not being able to do anything, I hate sitting still and I hate not being productive.
I have meddled in thoughts of making crafts and selling them online, but I’m not great with details and I’m a total perfectionist so I don’t think I would ever deem anything to be good enough to sell. I want to work with interior design, since that was my major study, but those kind of jobs require more work force than I am able to give.
Life now is just full of insecurities and I am so stressed out about what to do. What if they reject my application for financial help? What if I can’t find a new job if I have to? What if I run myself into the ground and end up jeopardizing my health again? I’m just crossing my fingers that I will have this all fixed before I run out of money.
Life is so stressful!